The weekend after the walk was my husband's first Father's Day and I hope it as special to him as my first Mother's Day was. We spent a quiet day at home as a family and it was wonderful to have that time together. One of the most amazing things for me to watch lately is how much Tera has become attached to him. She definitely seems to be comforted when he holds her after being at work all day and it almost makes me tear up when she just looks at him and breaks out into one of her huge smiles, as if to say, "Ahhh, my Dad!" I love watching them be silly together and make funny faces, and the looks of adoration at him make my heart want to just burst out of my chest with happiness. It was a time in my life I've looked forward to for so long and so far there hasn't been a moment of disappointment.
And finally, this weekend we have her big debut celebration. Neither of us being religious we did want her birth to be celebrated and after the outpouring of support and love from our family and friends, we wanted to give everyone a chance to meet our little stinker. So we are having over 70 people to our house for our celebration of Tera. I'm so excited for the rest of our families and friends to meet her and see what a special little person she is, and I won't lie, it's a reason for me to get her dressed up and get lots of pictures!
Everyday I wonder if I could love her more and I keep thinking it's not possible. Even at 11:30 last night when she was waking up for the 3rd time since she had been put to bed, and I was frustrated because there didn't seem to be a reason why, and all it took was me picking her up and holding her to calm her down, I realized that that are worse things that could be happening than my little girl falling asleep on my shoulder because she was comforted by my holding her. I don't know how long it will take, or if it will ever happen, but I swear I still don't believe she's ours. I look at her and still wonder how we created her and how she grew inside me and it still doesn't sink in that she did in fact come from me and that she is the most amazing thing we have created together. But I'll enjoy every realization that no matter how hard it is to believe, she's our little munchkin.